I understand the way that she looks, it’s too similar to my own so much of the time when I think about these things. I force a smile, ignoring the buzz of the gun. “Yet here I am, doing this to myself.”
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I understand the way that she looks, it’s too similar to my own so much of the time when I think about these things. I force a smile, ignoring the buzz of the gun. “Yet here I am, doing this to myself.”