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After it's all said and done, I'm not sure where to direct the most anger at myself. I'm angry I let it happen. I'm angry I got hurt in the first place. I'm angry it was in front of my students. Again and again.
The day should have started normally. I taught my morning class and ignored a twinge of pain in my shin. I'd felt it in my leg, on and off, over the last two months. Just a bruise that got aggravated, I'd thought, nothing more than that. If it had ever hurt enough for it to be anything else, I'd made myself ignore it. The fact that it ached to walk on had been inconvenient, nothing more.
And then I jumped. It should have been simple. One low platform to the higher, pulling my own weight up. It's a jump I'd done thousands of times. It's also the jump that put me in the hospital last time. If I weren't furious at the situation, at myself, I'd appreciate the parity.
I don't make the jump. I catch the ledge but my left shin hits a climbing pipe and pain explodes through my body. For just one second, my vision goes black, but one second is enough and I lose my grip.
The next thing I know, I'm on my back, cushioned by athletic mats, and hurting.
The day should have started normally. I taught my morning class and ignored a twinge of pain in my shin. I'd felt it in my leg, on and off, over the last two months. Just a bruise that got aggravated, I'd thought, nothing more than that. If it had ever hurt enough for it to be anything else, I'd made myself ignore it. The fact that it ached to walk on had been inconvenient, nothing more.
And then I jumped. It should have been simple. One low platform to the higher, pulling my own weight up. It's a jump I'd done thousands of times. It's also the jump that put me in the hospital last time. If I weren't furious at the situation, at myself, I'd appreciate the parity.
I don't make the jump. I catch the ledge but my left shin hits a climbing pipe and pain explodes through my body. For just one second, my vision goes black, but one second is enough and I lose my grip.
The next thing I know, I'm on my back, cushioned by athletic mats, and hurting.
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