[Greytris AU]

[priordivergence]

I'm standing there in my kitchen, trying to remind Grey of the drinks we've left cooling on the counter, but I can't quite fish out the words as he reaches up and touches my jaw. For long, painful seconds, all I can think of is the last person who cradled me like this, who watched my face with quiet understanding. I miss Tobias. I miss Christina and Uriah and knowing who I was. Maybe it had been an illusion of understanding, but it had been something.

I stare at Grey now, feeling like I'm on the precipice of something dangerous.

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[silenttrainbaby]

She did fine. More than fine. He takes her hand, pulling her to his bare chest, arms tight around her. He hadn't been worried and she did well.

[priordivergence]

I fold myself into his arms, leaning against his chest with my eyes closed. "I'm not brave enough to hurt someone I care about again."

[silenttrainbaby]

But she didn't. She wasn't even close to hurting him. He kisses her forehead and lingers there where she can feel him shake his head. She didn't.

[priordivergence]

I close my eyes and linger there against him. I don't want to be in that position again.

"I'm not throwing knives at you, okay?"

[silenttrainbaby]

It's valuable practice, though. Grey gently tilts her chin up to meet his eyes. It doesn't hurt them to be ready for whatever might come. A kiss, then, a promise.

[priordivergence]

I sigh against his mouth, relieved, and let some of the tension roll off my shoulders.

"Let's...Let's go inside."

[silenttrainbaby]

A kiss to her forehead and Grey nods. He'll fetch the knives, gathering them up to carry them inside.

[priordivergence]

I wait for him t come back, holding out a had for him.

[silenttrainbaby]

They're wrapped up and tucked under Grey's arm to carry inside. He slips his fingers in with hers and squeezes. IT's all right. They're all right.

[priordivergence]

I squeeze back, edging closer to him as we go back to my apartment, the quiet place we've built for ourselves.

"Are you staying tonight?"

[silenttrainbaby]

Pulling her hand to his mouth to kiss her knuckles, Grey nods again. Rarely anymore does he go back to Curtis's, only to check in now and again, make sure Curtis is all right.

Grey is more than all right. He likes Tris's bed; he likes her in it.

[priordivergence]

It's not late in the afternoon, not late enough to eat. Time stretches out in front of us, free to be used however we like.

I don't say anything as I close the door behind us, just squeeze his hand and walk toward my bedroom.

[silenttrainbaby]

There's a moment when Grey just watches her, letting her hand drop just briefly. There's that moment of promise.

It makes his belly feel warm and tight. After so little on the train, stolen moments of a different kind of intimacy, this - this - feels rich and decadent and so good.

He follows then, looking at the curve of her neck, the slope of her shoulder, the jut of her hip.

[priordivergence]

There's something oddly special in not having to rush. We could just lie down today, just kiss. Or we can do more.

His company is luxurious in the way we can take things at our own speed.

[silenttrainbaby]

It isn't just about coming - though Grey loves that too - just touching is deeply satisfying.

They're atypical for teenagers, but then again, neither of them were ever normal.

He stops behind Tris, leaning down to kiss the back of her neck, to taste the salt there, to wrap his arms around her, holding her.

[priordivergence]

Immediately, I relax into that touch, closing my eyes and leaning back into his arms. My right hand--free of stitches now--comes up to slide against one of his.

Without words, I take another step, puling us closer to the bed.

[silenttrainbaby]

Matching his steps with Tris's, Grey smiles just a little. He even mansges to kick off his shoes as they get closer to the bed.

[priordivergence]

As we get closer, I turn around to kiss him, enjoying the warmth that spread over my skin from the closeness. I trust him.

[silenttrainbaby]

She has every reason to trust him: Grey would kill for her, die for her if the need arose.

Now, though, he kisses her, liking very much how she felt, how she tasted.

[priordivergence]

It makes me tug him a little closer, reveling in the warmth and comfort. I've been to the pharmacy again, gotten anything we might need for whatever we want to do.

[silenttrainbaby]

Even as he holds her close, Grey reaches for the hem of her shirt, tugging it over her head and away. Then, they can be skin to skin.

Tris is as warm as he is; she feels good.

[priordivergence]

The growing cold outside makes the heat of his skin all the better. As I raise my arms, I giggle a little, just feeling light and happy. Carefree.

[silenttrainbaby]

By now, he knows her sensitive spots and Grey smiles as he tickles her, just over her ribs.

[priordivergence]

I laugh when he does that. To be honest, I laugh a lot more with Grey than I have without. It feels good, being happy and not worrying about living up to any rules or ideals but my own.

[silenttrainbaby]

Her laughter is musical and it warms Grey's chest. He kisses her forehead, her cheeks and finally, that mouth.